Look of Languish

Oil on Canvas (12”x24”), 2023

Piece made for Beyond the Rut, a group exhibition. It captures the feelings of exhaustion and distress that followed after graduating college. I felt so lost, like my identity was stripped away, along with all sense of structure and routine. The weight of unlimited options of how to devote my time was crippling. I struggled to land a job, not just art related, but even jobs I was able to obtain prior to having a degree. Receiving no after no was devasting after all the time I devoted to applications each day. To compensate, I’d stay up late trying to make up for the time I felt I lost, and to gain some alone time, as I’d moved back home. The days began to bleed into each other as I’d wake up later and later. I was stuck.